DEAR JANE..... DESPITE MY OWN MANY FLAWS......

MISTAKES,  I'VE MADE MORE THAN A FEW......

            I know......I know......who do I think I am writing all of  this, after the huge mistakes that I have made in my life?  Some mistakes that I can never fix, and that I am very ashamed of.  I need alot of forgiveness in my life too.  All I can say is that despite all of my many mistakes and  my many personal flaws, I do not physically or verbally abuse the people in my life, and I  have never abandoned anyone in my family or a friend in their time of need.  I believe that I have learned from my mistakes and that I have not recreated them.  I attend alanon and church to better understand the hand of cards that I was dealt in life, and how to move on and grow as an individual, and that does not include abuse,violence, hypocrisy or falseness, which is what my sister Jane married into.  Thank you for sharing today.  Love and light to you

NO GRATITUDE WAS EVER SHOWN.....

                      Dear Jane......It's hard to believe that your youngest son and I were shown no gratitude in our care for you, from the very individuals who really should have been responsible for you in your final months and days. In fact he was physically assaulted when he dared to question "someone" as to why they abandoned you Jane. The nerve of someone to attack the one who helped you and stood beside you through all of your pain and anguish.  How disgusting and low. The physical and verbal degradation never ends with these individuals.

     Make no mistake, and it is a solid fact......that it was Jane's two other children's ( both well over 30 years of age) responsibility to take care of you, when you became terminally ill, and in your heartbreaking final days, that I tried to help you through...and they both did nothing for you, nothing. They were supposed to take care of you the same way that you and I took care of our Mother, regardless of any past issues and resentment.  They are selfish and cold individuals.  I know that you wouldn't want me to print this Jane, but this is how and why things ended up the way they did.

    They can both thank me now for taking care of their Mother when she had no electric, no phone and no food.  I was with you on your last birthday, your last Christmas eve, your last New Years Eve, and your last hospital stay.  It doesn't matter what mistakes you made in your life Jane, you were their Mother, and you did not deserve this inhumane abandonment. They are nothing but cheap soul-less individuals, cheap in every sense and form of the word.  I know that in their self entitled arrogance and narcissism they don't give a damn.  I just want the whole universe to know it. They did nothing for you or your youngest son and waited for you to die, then held their travesty of a service, where the very "man" who used to beat you and abuse you read from the bible.  How lower can the degradation and falseness get?  How could you do this to your own Mother?  I can be at peace now knowing that you are free now Jane,  no more tears and pain,  no more wanting in vain,  and you are safe from the horrible and  degrading life of physical and verbal abuse, hypocrisy, blatant lies and cheap violence that these individuals lead.  Thank you for reading my words today.  Love and Light to you.

                          I found this hospital pass among many others in one of my suits that I wear to work, as I was taking it to the dry cleaners.  I have found dozens and dozens of hospital passes from the three hospitals that Jane was in.  I also found countless train tickets.  I  felt proud that I had done everything that I could for my sister and for "their" Mother.