Today is a brand new day, and another chance to change and grow. Jane's flower seeds that I planted in my window in February, are now on my back deck and are in full bloom. They look beautiful today. The weather is sunny and the sky is luminous blue. I'm just in a deep sadness that Jane is not here to see them. The last year of events is still always playing in the back of my mind like a film, and many of the flashbacks are incredibly painful. But I remember many of the calm moments of warm talks and just sitting together, and those are the moments that I would like to recall on this beautiful day right now. I believe that is what my sister Jane would want for me too. I pity those who abandon their own today, they miss out out on a treasured experience in life, sharing your true love, forgiveness and compassion for another who is leaving this world. I was with our Mother Lois the day she passed on, and a wonderful woman pastor, told me how fortunate that I was, to be there with our Mother in her final moments. I did not leave our Mothers side from the moment we put her into the ambulance (I rode in the back with her), and then helped bring our Mother up to the hospice room where I remained with her for the final seven hours of our Mother's life. I would have been devastated if our Mother had died alone, without me there. At the time that it happened, I never thought that I would feel true happiness again. no words or comfort helped me at the moment. I now realize that we all go, and all we take with us is the love that we gave and received. I now feel eternally grateful that I was there for our Mother. Our Mother did not die alone, she was unconscious, but she knew that I was there, kissing her forehead, holding her hand and doing whatever I could to help her. Yes, I truly pity those who abandon their own, you are nothing but spiritual cowards. No excuses in this universe are acceptable. Thank you for reading my post today, and remembering my beautiful sister Jane. Love and Light to you.
